Entry 9
ok I will go on a fucking diet & get rich.... if im able to spend less than 200 next month ill be around 800 richer heheheheehheheheeh
Entry 8
i love Life.
2day i only attended 1 class cuz my 10-12 class got cancelled. and FINALLY the mystery ive been wantjng to solve is SOLVED XD #NotTellingWhat ok and then blablabla after a very good nap i go pasar malam wif My friends & got the usual things
to top it off i greeted and fed a few cat
alsoooooooooooo yay we are planning to go ipoh this Weekend im so excited
i Started religiously listening to bladee again and everything just feels soooooo NICE. #Alhamdulillah God is Gracious!
btw yes i forgot on my new page plan but wtv that can wait
Entry 7
Wait i think im in love with this site again tmr IM gonna add another page Dedicated for me to dox myself AKA my biodata idk Or maybe not actually yes i will Cuz FUCKKK BEING MYSTERIOUS
Entry 6
im not whitewashe
i say fak instead of fuck
I love nasi lemak and teh beng
im fucking lazy
and Zul Ariffin daddy giler
Yay #MelayuBoleh Tapi tolong jangan buat janji melayu ngan aku CUZ FUCK YALL
wait is this a poetry am i A POET #pottery (≧∀≦)
Entry 5
Just replaced all dates with "Entry XX" life is Amazing i feel like i have privCy
Entry 4
Drain Gang is my BTS
Bladee is my Jung Kook
Entry3
Love it when people just tell me things i give 0 fucks about like ok omg yas now i give 1000 fucks thank you so much i love listening keep talking n no lets not Talk about me
Entry2
i keep saying Im not a lesbian but I still want her
I wanna wake up n see a Pretty girl next to me
I wanna buy groceries n carry her bags n feed the black cat we forgot to name
Sometimes I think I was supposed to be a Straight Guy. like something went wrong in Translatuon
I used to move like one too. Heavier. Rougher
Now I look Softer but inside its the same kind of wanting
I wanna love a Girl the way a Man gets to love a Woman. Openly. Stupidly. With both hands
Every time it starts to turn into somethin with a guy I just wanna disapear
no guy could ever see me the way a Girl could see me
id Thjnk i wish u were a Girl
I imagine us in some doomed yuri. all Sugar n Bruise
If he could just turn into a Girl maybe wed have a chance
but the thought of a Future with him makes my chest hurt. Stability makes my chest hurt.
I know how I love. Once it starts it never stops. It only ends when it rots into Hate. Maybe better not start at all
I hate that a Guy could give me a life that looks Right. I hate that Right feels Wrong
I dont want a Man to be my Ending
I Love and Hate Stability. I hate Stability when it comes to Men. I dont wanna end up with a Guy. But I do wish for Stability with a Girl. I want a Girl to be my Forever
They keep saying Love should be Safe but I dont want Safe
I want Real. Even if it Burns. Even if it Brekas
Id leave a Husband for a Girl without even flinching
Id never cheat on a Wife. Id never look away from her
I just hate how hard the World makes it. How being with a Girl always feels like standing in the Rain pretending its Warm
Sometimes I think if I was a Guy this would all be Easier
I could love her Safely. We could hold hands in the open and no one would look twice
Its not that I wanna be a Man. Its jsut I wanna live without having to explain myself
I want the kind of Stability that doesnt feel like giving up
They tell me Ill find the right Person
I keep thinking Yeah. Maybe
If shes Real
If shes Allowed to be
Entry1
deleted all my entries again. idk it just reeks of pretentiousness and was like genuinely corny #FuckDat i think im gonna start sayijg wtva i want